Saying "Good-bye" never felt so GOOD!

"Auld Lang Syne" ...Should old acquaintance be forgot, and never brought to mind ? 

 HELL YEAH!

The END is just hours away... well the end of an OLD year that is (2009). From politics to poverty -- Everyone was affected in many ways during this "EYE-OPENING" & challenging year. Seem like everyone was losing something -- jobs, homes, even lives, but I managed to find light & happiness during this very dark and grim year.

Many lost and fewer gains, but it's the "gain" I've personally concentrated on this year. I had lost just about everything the WORLD had given me, but gained a better attitude and healthier life. A life of purpose graciously embraced by divine intervention. With the help of God & my willingness to change -- heaven smiled upon me and my life was transformed.

During the spring of 2009 something magnificent happened. I began moving in a direction that was charged by HOPE, created from LOVE, & guided by the hands of beautiful ANGELS. I have come across some of the most influential and powerful people on the planet. They are the "SECRET" force behind Summer Lovin.
The more I surrounded myself with these angelic beings, the more I learned. I witnessed good and bad, but it was the GREATNESS that I honestly saw in all of them. Now greatness has revealed itself in me.

I am saying "GOOD-bye" to 2009, but refuse to make any resolutions like others. Why take NEW thoughts into an OLD body with the same behavior? I believe that if a person is serious about change -- the change starts months prior to the end of the year. Will a day make a difference? No.

Although I shamefully made resolutions last year -- Lol -- I was able to accomplish 3 out of the 5 goals set for 2009. Obtaining my high school diploma after dropping out of school years ago was a major accomplishment for me this year.  Now I will be attending school to pursue my passion in photography and anticipate what ever blessings God set on my path. No resolutions... just time, patience, perseverance, and FAITH.

For 2010 -- GOD IS IN CHARGE of my life and saying good-bye to 2009... Never felt so GOOD!

HAPPY NEW YEAR... see you in the FUTURE! God bless us all.

((( hugs ))))

Summer LOVIN defines "EXOTIC"

ex⋅ot⋅ic : strikingly unusual or strange in effect or appearance

What's your definition of EXOTIC? Some say it's in the walk, your style, or the way you MOVE--I say it's the ATTITUDE. Exuding characteristics that are delightful and pleasant, but NAUGHTY all in one. I consider myself exotic in many ways and try to covey that through my photography. Being exotic is defined by an individual's own collective style or mimic through someone else's eyes.

What ever it is? I enjoy being "strikingly unusual". I appreciate the ones who S  T   A   N   D  OUT in a crowd. People who are strong in character, mind, and spirit. Intriguingly different individuals are the ones who enhance the fabric of this world. Beautiful pieces or images of light that gives an EXOTIC feel to our everyday lives. 

Exotic people are very ANGELIC in my eyes. I appreciate sexy, sensual, and CONFIDENT folks. 

(PEACE IS CREATED WHEN WE START LOVING ONE ANOTHER)

Forbidden LOVE

When EVE decided to select the strange and exotic fruit from the tree -- she never imagined a world like this.

A world full of information. A world full of knowledge. Knowledge is the body of truths or facts accumulated in the course of time. She never imagined "ONE" single bite of curiosity would cause us -- MANKIND -- to SEE, HEAR, TASTE, FEEL and SMELL God's creation.

We go through life learning daily on all types of subjects. Some study science, others reading, but for me... it's LOVE. For love is all 5 senses in one.

There are many aspects in regards to love. But the one I find to be the most challenging, is forbidden love. A love that is "prohibited" or "not allowed" strengthens the heart. To be apart or separated from a person you love, want, and at times need is difficult. 

Imagine sitting back at night -- depending on where... lying at the beach on a warm summer's night or in your car... gazing at the stars, looking up and thinking about a person you love deeply. 

I know I'm not the only helpless romantic in the world who has wanted something so bad... you can just "taste it." You have this person's best interest at heart, always hoping for the best in all his/her endeavors but there is a challenge.

What if this person was out of reach? Unable to be touched? Impossible to  see? Then LOVE becomes an obstacle full of adventure, hurt, TEARS, pleasure, passion, and complete understanding. If EVE would have known that her "curiosity" would have caused her to CRAVE and miss her male... to live in a pain of silence -- crushed from being apart -- would she have eaten of the fruit? To be severed from true LOVE sucks. Letting go is best when love is "FORBIDDEN" but then again if you are strong enough to endure the journey, seek him/her, but only if he/she is WORTH IT... all.

( forbidden LOVE depends on you. )

thanks for reading

Listen to my HEART

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me ( Psalm 51:10)...

I'm experiencing this "NEW" or pure heart and the healing process from the transformation is challenging at times. I love because my first thought says -- and I do. I'm purging the "old" self and revealing a better me -- Summer Nazarian. As I live daily with extreme optimism, I often wonder if all this is in vain. But then I awake to my Father's (Heavenly) voice -- whispering sweet words of encouragement. I see VISIONS of beautiful things even though our world is dying and crying -- to be rescued.

Should I ignore what is evident or go the "delusional" route like others? I see the TRUTH & it started with looking myself in the MIRROR, taking my own inventory, removing the skeletons and bodies out of my closet (lol... keepin' it real). I have no one to please but the one who created me and I'm passionate about that -- not forceful or arrogant about my beliefs, but confident in knowing the one who CREATED me.

Love is a journey and what is a "journey"? To move along a particular course. Some go on a path completely their own but their are some who paths are destined. Meant to be...

Fate.

I've realized that life is truly what you make it and life will return whatever one gives it -- GOOD OR BAD.  As of now,  I am going to give life all the "LOVE" and peace I have and that's good for the world has enough bad within it. I walk in love...

I walk in love because of my savior. (Yeshua) 

Shalom. ((( hugs ))))

Tangible DREAMS

When I was a little girl -- I had fantasies. I fantasized about unusual things... very strange and pleasantly bizarre. But I've never imagined of being a star. Like Cinderella and all the beauties who had somber stories to tell or a life full of pain -- I too thought of endless possibilities in pursuit for freedom and true happiness. I would close my eyes every night and create a world in my mind that was full of beauty, grace, and LOVE... Sadly -- this was not my reality.

"Wish upon a star", "Close my eyes and make a wish", or "Hocus Pocus"... I've used them all. I hoped to have been rescued or saved by a handsome and very charming Prince, but toads, rodents, and snakes are what I attracted.

I realized I had to change my attitude along with my active imagination and "ATTRACT", but in a new and exciting way. I had to stop viewing myself as lower than some -- for what is within me is HIGHER than any man on earth. To be a servant is not a dishonor or a disgrace for even the GREATEST of men have served.

People serve daily -- for their country, their neighborhood, or support friends. I guess that's why I love cartoons and fairy tales -- because everything is always HAPPILY EVER AFTER...

Hmm. Wonder if this is a possibility? Could happen. ((( hugs ))))

A heart saved by GRACE

Life is full of beliefs. Some believe in this or even that but, I believe in LOVE.

Our human minds will never be able to truly understand love -- unless one has become spiritually enlightened or aware of their universal surroundings. Going through trials and tribulations in life can cause one to go through a roller coaster of emotions, but the heart survives. What if you were unable to mend a broken heart? A heart that has endured the worst pain ever imagined- year after year, day to day, hour after hour.

Yes, many have experienced a bad break-up or disappointment by a loved one. But the heart I speak of is unlike any other... a "shattered heart". A heart that is beyond repair and no self-help book, medication, or physician could reconstruct. Like the old cliche', "Wear your heart on your sleeve"... Seems like my heart was placed there from birth.

I've gone through a transformation that has been kissed by grace, inspired by the stars, and became one with the universe. I took sometime away from others in order to reflect on self. I rediscovered the "lost little girl" in search of her Father (Heavenly). A journey that had taken 16 long years and now I've finally arrived - on schedule.

Love is the reason behind my smile. Love is what gives me the ability to wake up and face the most difficult or uncomfortable circumstances. Love has laced her beauty around me and filled my heart with compassion beyond this world. Now you understand why I believe in love... I'm a new woman whose heart was saved by GRACE.

((( hugs )))) - Transformed.

Friendship

Some say you can't pick your family but you can select your FRIENDS.

What's your definition of friend? A friend is someone who's there for you no matter what.

A person who will tell you what you want to hear -- or should. I think about the people who have

been in my life for the past 32 years. Many have faded away & others have reappeared,

and some have become enemies. Whatever the case may be -- I value friendships.

F to the R as I am to the END... is how I define friend. Lately I've been questioning

friends or friendships. I had to rid my life of so-called friends and became my own friend.

I removed myself from those who say they LOVED me with one breathe, and talked

behind my back with another.

I'm pretty content with my life and the NEW experiences that have brought some really

great, inspiring, and brilliant people in my life, but I'm still without real friends. I believe

I'm misunderstood, but I understand human emotions. I don't care how many years

has gone by, or where my friends are in the present -- I accept them, but have they

accepted me? Either way I know that I AM a real friend & will support those I love regardless.

That's why Summer will always stay LOVIN -- u.

((( hugs ))))

Confessed LOVE

Truth lies in the heart and on the lips of the one who loves you.

No words can express how I truly feel -- for a love like this can

never be revealed -- concealed for my protection.

I will not leave you guessing. I'm not stressin'.

Love is a tough lesson.

What will come of me? Only God knows but my love for you grows...

stronger each day. Should I be ashamed for feeling this way? Or should

I stay silent -- having nothing to say.

I have paid for my sins. And I try each day -- to rid my life of HATE

& invite LOVE to stay. I share my world because it's HIS plan...

destiny or fate are in his hand. I've been chosen to find GREATEST in every man.

When ever I fall -- will you help me to stand? I speak truth and will never lie

for hurting you or I -- makes me cry. I stay strong for many & neglect self.

Separation leads only to death. Like a Juliet to a Romeo -- love is strange.

So very true. But my life turned around -- the moment I found you.

((( hugs xxx ))))

Connecting Souls

They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder...

but this is not true -- separation is painful. To disconnect or withdraw from the very source

of your happiness is like snatching a child from the arms of it's mother.

I'm a lover, but I fight for what is right. Compassionate people I try to embrace

with out judgement -- all sins erased. I'm of light -- darkness covers me because

of the hatred of many enemies. I pray daily -- never ceasing but increasing my spirit

as it grows & wings appear... I fly.

I soar. I explore and want more. I have to endure this pain. My soul reaches out toward

the heavens to capture the true essence of life -- me, you, us, and them. We are one but you make us two -- division. Our souls separates or should I say drift apart...

You will always be in my heart -- way down deep... where no one knows. We are destined light... connecting souls.

(((( hugs ))))

FORGIVENESS

Forgiveness -- How does one define it? The definition for "FORGIVE" means:to cease to feel resentment against: to forgive one's enemies.

Almost two years ago -- I had a lot of enemies. People who never took the opportunity to get to know me -- instead judged. Without explaining the entire ordeal I faced -- Let's just say it was a very "UGLY" situation. I have always been a very positive person & never tried to hurt anyone, but for the past couple of years I was everyone's favorite "topic".

Rumors and lies almost destroyed me as a person -- until I realized I was not the one they HATED, but themselves. I'm an Aries. What does that mean? It means -- I'm courageous, adventurous, energetic, and confident by nature. I can't help but be a free spirit full of LIFE, love, and laughter.

Last year after I decided to end my marriage. I set out to redefine myself as a woman, mother, and American. With little money but a great deal of determination -- I pursued my dreams. I stepped out of the box and into a world that was in need of a little sunshine. I believe in God and He set me free. I forgave myself for all the wrong I put my body through & then began to FORGIVE others for what they had done to me.

Has it solved all my problems? Of course not, but I have a NEW heart now full of love, happiness, & peace.

Welcome to my world & share this journey with me.

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